dawn_marie03

So on saturday... i went to a wedding. It started at 4pm, we got lost and showed up at 425...and it was over!! :/ i enjoyed myself w. the reception to the annonomus keg... we guess HAMS, as the mysterious beer!! haha. I held my own. Had like 6 beers, but before i arrived i had a Jim and seven. Then headed to drink some more, usually i am feeling pretty good with 3 jim beams. I decided i could drink 6 Jim Beams, I was spining by 1130. Passed out by 1245... woke up to me puking at 9am while my alarm going off! I had to open the bar that morning! Oh what a challenge that was! haha.

I closed the bar for the first time last night. [I usually work bar- day shifts] My manager gave me the whole bar to myself at 7pm...I got my ass kicked. Made good money though! =]]
I loved it!!

Today i helped a friend on homework, I worked on it for 4 hours!! my wrist feels like i went bowling!! haha. Its been a minute since I've done school work!! My mind is boggled! Don't know what to do with myself!! but I felt I did something productive!!

k..thats it..
for now!!

=]]

I started lastnight w. a jager bomb, then went to CHARLIES and had Dave-washington Apples..yep. the key word is "Dave" yep. that would mean STIFFDRINKS, had two, and felt like i could change the world!!So I went to a bbq/party!! It was a Bartender from my CHEERS, in Portland. it was their bbq. I exspected, ya know...30 people. Just the hommies from the Fir, I thought. Well, It was the biggest party i'd ever seen or attended to!! I'd say that there was 150 people, IF NOT MORE!! It was three houses and they took christmas lights and tied them from tree to tree, in different yards to block off the streets. hahaha. There were bon-fires in the streets. I'd got there around nine, and everyone was trashed. They all started at 5ish. I had noooo trouble catching up...hahaha. I got preeeetty toasted. I just sat down to light a cigg. and a cop pulls up. :[ So my friend mary wanteed to leave, once she saw the cop... damn! my fun was just begining!! but what could i do!! I didn't drive. :/ So we walk a few blocks, I am sloshing my drink in my hand ALL OVER myself, and in my hair! hahaha. well anyway we get to the car and pull out and there now was 6 more cop cars!! So i still am curious to know what had happend!! I sooo wanted to stay! I think Mary and I, honestly were the youngest two people...22. It was a blast! UNTIL.... Dawn's wasted, home at midnight. sad.sad. :/ i know. ( this is where not having a car suuuucks, i wouldnt have drove, but would have kiiiicked it longer, and crashed there)..so i stumble in and alone and behold...moms up!! k, she is never up this late. I walk in, half a fifth of three olives in one hand, a cup, in the other( that i some how seemed to smuggle from the party.haha. goodtimes.) and JUST got done smoking a bowl, so i could pass out..probably reaked.. reeeeally cute, huh?? there is mom and i am off my rocker!! =]] i went straight to my room...got ready for bed, woke up at 7am, thinking i was gonna get sick... BUT I DIDNT!!! Lastnight was random and TONNNS of FUNNNN!! ugh...oh yeah.... i made out w. a girl...hahaha. I still am not so sure, how that happend...RAAAANDOM!!
k. that's it for now... I am sleepy. worked a naaaasty shift at work, made 15 dollars. cute, huh?? a waste of my time! I have to meet the girls bright n early for breakfast..yay!
g'nite

I have had a long weekend! It is so nice to be at home, in sweats, and being able to just sit back. I've been running on 3-4 hours of sleep. I worked a double yesterday, bar-tending. I was so tired after the shift ended. I didn't want to do anything, but to go home. My friend, Emily convinced me to go get a drink with her at Charlie's. I had two drinks and was ready to PARTY.[having a drink while being tired, always changes your mind..haha.] While at Charlie's I ran into two friends I hadn't seen for a minute. Goodtimes. It was so nice to see them. Well Emily had to go home. I decided to scamper to Portland, with Mary and Lex. We ended up going to Doug Fir. [it's my "CHEERS". haha] You always have a great time at the Fir. The BARTENDERS are FABULOUS. One of them are having a huge party on Sunday. I can't wait. Anyways, I pretty much kicked it with Mr. Beam all night. Jim kicked my ass.
I was f'd up. Smoked a bliz. I was done for. Passed out around four a.m. Then had to work this morning. I was so brain-dead. I tripped over my own feet 4-5 times. Had trouble speaking. Cut corner's too short, so i'd end up running into the wall. Very slow-paced. Barley had enough in me to even take my tables orders, let alone know my own name. [haha] I had a table asks for napkins, ( i didn't hear her) and I say, "onions?" (how you get onions out of napkins, I have no idea!) What a day. So I survived work, and relaxed, watched a movie.."just Friends" if ur wondering and drank some chi-tea. yum. It was so nice. So I am thinking I should catch up on sleep, and not do anything tonight. I am happy I went out lastnight, even though I was tired. I ran into people I haven't seen in awhile. Had so much fun with Emily. Had a BLAST at Doug Fir with Lex and Mary, and got invited to a huge party next weekend! =]] And got wasted. fun.fun.
that's all for now.
Goodnight.

So i started early with having jager bombs... bc i was sad i was not in Seattle!!! :/
been RoooooCking out..all day n night to TBS new cd...watched the video, numberous times w.my giiirl Desiree!! now i am hella tired. bored. so think i am gonna pass out to watching some OC!! Damn, mother's day!! ugh thats like towmorrow!! shoot, i haven't even got my mommy anything!! and i don't drive!! grrrrr. seven more wks till i can drive. wootwoot!!
ugh...that's it for now!!

so i had such a bad start to my day.. a friend, ditched on plans that we've had for a week now..not gonna lie...i was a little upset. then i asked her sunday night to go out w.me, and she said she couldn't..so i then talk to her today and she says she went out sunday..ugh...okayyyy!?.. THEN she tells me she is not going to seattle, friday..like we planed. So now i am in a BIG bind. WE HAD plans!! and now i dont know what's going on. Seattle trip was/is suppose to be in four days..I HAVE TO HANG/ and SEE HEATHER!!! It was just one of those plans, I WAS SOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO!! I can't believe it!! i totally feel i can't ever make plans w. my so called friend. i am having the thought of, not giving her any of my time, or should i say waste my time on a friendship that feels like I have been such a great friend, been there, done manyMANY favors for her. more than it's ever even came close to what i have gotten out of the friendship!! it's sad. i dont wanna completely shut her out of my life, but geeeez..
i dont even know what to think anymore!! it's like she makes plans to break them. can't ever count on her. this was a best friend of mine. but i slowly have came to realize, she isnt a true friend, and it almost hurts!! so basically i don't know, if i should just cut back w.trying to hang w. her, forget about her, or just put it behind??? ahhhhh!!! maybe i should just get the hell out of VAN motherf.ing TUCKYYY!!! i wanna get a house, anyyyywhere, w.people i don't really know..yep. like realworld n sh!t!! that would be great!!!! a new start. vantucky life left behind, burnt and burried in my parent backyard...SEE YAAAA NEVER AGAIN!!! but yeah, i could ramble for days. yada.yada.
on the good note.. i went tanning, then went to lunch w. my friend hayley. i had a spanish coffee. yum.
went to work all in a good mood n' sh!t...had a blast a work tonight... made a server who had been cut, go to the gas station and buy me 2 Liquid Charges, and pour 'em in a big to go cup...guzzzled it on the back doc, and got my buzz on...muuuahaha.goodtimes. i think i found a new BAD habbit!! =] got into 2 huge water fights!! made good money. and there was a HUGE fight in the boys bathroom...I was soooo in that sh!t...i was trying to break it up..yelling at 'em to get the F' out of my resturant, and to never come back..i was so ready to Jump-kick one of these mother f'ers...all fighting in the bathroom and picking a fight w.oneof our cooks!! FUCKERS!! grrrrr! Live Action @ Applebees...yay!! haha.
i know am going to go to bed..yep.sounds so great.
i am not going to let someone ruin my Seattle trip!! i will do what i have to, to get the hell up there and hang w. heather, and hopefully tess. yayyyy!!
G'night.
peaceout.
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Soooo..I have had such a busy weekend. I am tired. worn-out. Don't wanna go to work in the morning!! I have been working so much, and not really making any money. It's frustrating!! I really need to find another job, especially if i am not in school. Anyway, i have a BUSY week ahead as well. I am working seven days this week. And still have to make time to study some things, for work. I am a server, and am going to start training for the bar. I am excited, yet nervous!! They gave me two training shifts and I am by myself, on a SATURDAY night... only for an hour by myself..but still, I am nervous!! I went to a DUKES on friday, for a friends birthday!! It was fun. Except I felt i was in a western movie, or something!! haha. Not my kind of hang out. But it WAS FUN!! =]

My Best-friend and I are talking again!! yay!! We have only hung out twice, and haven't really talked so much. Like we use too! But it definitely took some pressure off of me. I just can't tell.. if things will be back to normal, yet.

ugh...yeah. I am sooo tired. i barley can think. Also, i am starting to nod off!!
I know so much more has happened in this last week!! just can't put it together!!
peace.

gahh. I am beat. I had walked to work today, took 40 minutes. By the time i had got there, i had been put into a zone... didn't feel like being social. Hard, that is.. I am a waitress, so i had to be somewhat social. Just had an odd day. Everyone kept asking me why i was being so quiet, but i couldn't say much, but to blame it on the weather. It was gloomy out and rainy. Don't you ever feel like the weather f**ks with your mood?? I sure think so. At work: So it got a bit busy, and i'd went to a table to drop off their checks... right as i turned to drop another check to the table RIGHT ACROSS from the other...I am being tugged by my BELT..YES MY BELT...this biiiiatch had the nerve to grab me by my belt, and as i am turning to see if this is REALLY happening, and before i can even open my mouth, she's raising her voice saying "take my card" I was so shocked, mad, confused...didn't even know what to do. I WANTED TO FREAK OUT, and kick her in the face. Oh, yes then she stiffed me. (didn't tip) bitch. There was nothing at all wrong with her food, drink always full. I KNOW i took care of them. Anyway, can you believe that??
I want a box of wine, all to myself..k..thanks.

SoooOH...It's officially been a whole week and two days w.out me being able to drive!! =[ It's a lot harder to adjust to than I thought it would be... It actually sucks ball sacks. yep.yep. I've been able to drive since I've been sixteen, and I am 22. I definitely was to a point, of being so sick of driving EVERYWHERE and being a taxi driver. Now it's a major reality check. I never realized how much I actually did LOVE being able to drive. The Freedom, going places you want just to get out of the house, being able to leave somewhere whenever you want and not waiting on your ride, being able to drive to and from work, going to the store, shopping, to the bar, whatever it is...

I do not like to ask of things from family nor friends. I never have. I am very independent, like to do everything on my own. I am more of a "giver" than "receiver." I can't call someone and say "I wanna hang out....but I can't drive." ya know!? This has been a ruff week, and just to think, I have until July that I am able to drive again, well it kills me. But I did it to myself. Live and Learn.

One of my Best friends and I haven't talked for a week now, as well... sad.sad.
Guess we weren't as close as I thought!! =[
blah.blah. that's it for now. blah.blah.